Bentley started kindergarten and that's been a tough road. He cried every morning for the first three weeks straight. The fourth week clicked and he started walking from the car into the school on his own. Fifth week regression occurred and there were more tears. However, the sixth week was amazing and we even started dropping off at the big entrance near the cafeteria! All is well there.
He started playing soccer too this fall. The first two solid weeks he & I watched from the sidelines. Then, the coach got him out on the field during third week practice and that was the end (… or the beginning). He has played every game and practice since then & loves it!!
I haven't had enough time and mental capacity to blog since school started. It has been a really tough transition. I LOVE my new job. I love doing vinyl, too (and I need the money still), and I love school! The problem is that I am not capable of doing it all. I am getting up at 4-4:45 every morning and going to bed usually by 10 but sometimes as late at 1am. I have had several 3 hour nights of sleep. Hence the title of my post: 3-7 (hours of sleep) is the new 8!
This is a really dark time for me. I absolutely HATE my situation right now. I strive to find happiness and that seems to come more easily during the week when I'm in a strict routine and working as hard as I can. Weekends are killing me. I have suffered depression a lot on the weekends. I hate it. The situation is so heavy. I have pondered what can be dropped from the 3 main responsibilities: work, work, school. Nothing can go. I need more time. I hate that I have to keep moving "through" this. I want it to go away. I want to just work my vinyl company and do school, even though I love my new job and the people I work with.
First practice he participated in. No shoes on! :o
First game. This was right as he scored a goal!
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