Feels Like Sunday

Saturday morning as Bentley was waking up I walked from my bathroom to go lay by him for a minute (he sleeps in my bed on Friday nights as a treat). The first thing he said to me was "I thought it was Sunday". He proceeded to tell me that the fan being on in the bathroom reminds him of Sunday. 

Surprised me to realize he's associating the floor fan noise to getting ready for church. I had no idea. Goes to show children are gathering information & making correlations about their surroundings all the time.   

Reflection

In regards to serious relationships, the person you pursue is a reflection of your self esteem. 

Dried Yogurt

You know that you're completely swamped when a yogurt fell out of the fridge and busted open on Wednesday night and you're just now cleaning it up on Saturday night. 

Every single minute of every day this week has been full of responsibility. 

Expect the Unexpected

Ever since Kensington was a toddler (hard baby before that) I KNEW she would be a hard teenager. She used to be more defiant than she is now which prepared me for this time. Cali moved up right behind her with so much sass that I knew, she too, would be a hard teenager. Surprising to me, both of them have been pretty manageable. Cali, at least, communicates to me that "I know, I'm sorry, I'm trying to work on that" in sincerity when I approach her with her bad attitude. The thing I was not prepared for is how hard Bella (the girl caboose) is. She has more attitude and theatrics than all 3 older sisters combined. I am seriously losing my ever-living mind. Someone please send in reinforcements.

Ridiculous

I am under a lot of pressure and quite honestly, I am miserable. The responsibilities each day are killing me. I have been staying up late doing school assignments. Today I went to  College Station on my day off to have lunch with Braelyn for her birthday (tomorrow). It is now 4:35, just getting back from the school run and I have two papers due for Philosophy before 8pm, a lab (2 hours) for Oceanography due by 11:59pm, 2 papers due for Sociology by 9am in the morning and I am babysitting from 6-7:15 and the girls have New Beginnings tonight. I'd like to say this is out of the normal for a day/night but it is not. I am completely overwhelmed and I wanted to document this so I can look back in a few years and remember that it was a sacrifice and it was hard.

I feel like something has to give very soon.

Must Move By End of Year

I just realized after looking through December's blog entries that we are going to need to move before the end of this year. We have already used every hiding place for our elf-on-the-shelf...

Reprieve

I went to the temple today for a major reprieve from my world. To put it mildly, I needed a small escape from financial concerns, scheduling conflicts, Bella's track meet concerns, Bentley's soccer practice and game scheduling concerns, Kensy's and Bella's broken phones, strange concerning bug bites that are surrounding my belly button, laundry piled high, cat litter box, school deadlines, vinyl deadlines, work work, Kensy's new car's plates and registration issues, more scheduling conflicts, dirty carpet, dishes piling high, teaching concerns from last week's lesson at church, church assignments, church boundary changes (major OCD... the impending changes are killing me), lack of sleep, upcoming birthdays, hurt grandma, emotional scars from friendships, babysitting schedule changes, thank you cards, obsessive thoughts about my crush (who doesn't know I exist), Bentley's pink eye, returning emails, Ken's new Rx, grocery shopping, camp fundraiser (by the way, who wants to purchase meals to send my girls to camp this summer?? ;), Bentley's homework, teenage attitudes, five year old attitude, lack of emotional needs being met, family home evening, taking the trash to the curb, working out, getting an oil change, making dinner, making B's lunch, making my own lunch, summer scheduling conflicts, oldest daughter and extra driver involved in softball season for next three months... you get the idea! I am completely overwhelmed.

The temple was perfect. The reprieve was short lived. <3 

Music

Music is a powerful way we receive inspiration. Today has been a really hard day and after I got sad news and my car wouldn't start I was really down. A bit later the lyrics of this song came into my head and my heart took courage because I know the Lord wants me to know "There will be brighter days". heart emoticon
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  The song is "Move" by Mercy Me.