Days off are really hard for me. I experience more anxiety than usual. The reason why is because I have so very many different responsibilities that need my attention and it's up to me to figure out what to work on, when, and for how long. Today is Good Friday and we are off work. Do I work on vinyl, school assignments, research papers, clean my bathroom, spend time with the kids, run errands for Easter, work out, do dishes, go to the temple...? All of them "need" my time.
At least work/school days offer structure and take the pressure off with no "free time".
... this is an "edit" or more that I've been pondering today. I sat down to "map" out my day tomorrow and it's so busy I'm not even going to attempt to write it out. However, something hit me today and reminded me of an answer I received two weeks ago in relation to this subject. We attended the North Stake's Stake Conference for church two weeks ago where Elder Dallin H. Oaks spoke. There has been a lot mentioned over the last two years from church leaders about "Keeping the Sabbath day holy". Elder Oaks was speaking about this topic and he said that Sunday is a day "separate" from the other days and that we do "different" things than we typically do on the Sabbath. He acknowledged that it looks differently for each family. He was talking about the six creative periods and said the Lord worked for six "days" and rested on the seventh. The Spirit touched my heart when he spoke those specific words and I realized that I need to re-adjust the way I think about my days each week. I was in need of the reminder (or lesson) that I "work" for six days and rest for one. In the past, Saturday was always part of the weekend and was a family day or free day. It is not anymore and if I can keep that in remembrance it helps me not feel "cheated".
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