Yesterday during Sunday School a man was reading some passages from the scriptures and I was in la-la land thinking about something else and at the end of the scriptures he read "Amen" and I very verbally said "Amen" out of habit as if someone just ended a prayer.
I haven't felt that flushed and embarrassed in a long time. haha I was hoping others who heard me just thought I was strongly agreeing with what the scripture said (which I could have because it was on grace- I know that because I went back and re-read it quickly after I said Amen to see what I just agreed to) but NO, I was totally checked out and thought we ended a prayer obviously.
Good times.
Monday, February 27, 2012
Moments of Impact
If any of you have seen "The Vow" lately with Channing Tatum you will know what he was talking about when he says "moments of impact". He talks about how one moment can change your life forever. We saw a car on fire on Saturday night down in Kemah that helped me keep my ticket in perspective but what happened the following day was completely humbling. I was getting ready for church as I heard a siren go by our back window. When a second one went by I decided to see what was going on. I opened my window to see a huge amount of black smoke billowing up behind us from our neighbor's house. There ended up being 16 emergency responders on the scene and took almost an hour and a half before the fire was completely put out. These pics were taken from my bedroom window.
As we were watching a couple things happened. We met this single old lady who lives a couple blocks away. I've noticed her before as she was out in her yard. She is trying to sell her house and I've seen her working out front a time or two and "noticed" her. She walks slow. She looks frail. I remember thinking that the first time. She struck up conversation easily and it turns out she has buried two sons and a husband all in the last four years (a 3 year span) and lives by herself, with no family around. :(!!! She was crying as she was telling me about her losses. My heart instantly sank. I don't think moments of impact are random or coincidental.
As we told our new friend we would visit her soon we came back "home" to normal everyday life and had lunch. WE HAD A HOUSE TO COME HOME TO. Do you ever think "life's not fair"? On Saturday I could have easily thought that exact thing. I woke up and did service that was completely hard and inconvenient. I had a MILLION (and five) other things to do but I chose to do what I felt was right and that same night I got a ticket for registration that was late, not because I wasn't responsible enough to pay it on time but because I didn't have the extra money in January. That could have been unfair. The truth is I had broken the law. I was in violation of having expired tags. You wanna know what's not fair? Out of our entire neighborhood yesterday only ONE FAMILY was without a home. Only one family was left standing on a street in their pajamas while EVERY OTHER FAMILY went back home. That isn't fair. Life is very hard. I remember one thing very clearly about growing up and my mom would always tell me "life's not fair". Since I've become an adult I've added a phrase to the end of that sentence "life's not fair; but eternity will be". I know our Heavenly Father puts people in our paths for a reason. I know HE is aware of this family and how devastating this fire is for them. I feel helpless. I'm grateful for the power of prayer.
You never know what will happen.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
It's Me Again
I forgot a few things this week. Here are some randoms over the chaos of this out-of-control week.
This morning I went to put my contacts in and since I ran out of solution yesterday I grabbed a new bottle out of the closet my mom had given me. I put some solution on the contact and put it in my eye and BURNED the heck out of it. I have never gotten a contact out so quickly. I tossed it out to rush my eye under the water while trying to keep my composure since Bella was freaking out that I was hurt (and I was). I swear I heard the sizzle come out of my eyeball!! As I rushed back over to see WHAT I just ushered into my eye I realized I put a soak and cleanse solution on instead of a multi-use. Who would have ever known it would chemically burn your eye. It's been red all day. Noticeably so.
This week has been so stressful and my body has been hurting everyday. Like I'm 60 or something. It's been hurting so much that I dreamt a couple nights ago that I was in an exercise class that consisted of all stretching and I remember in my dream that it felt so good. I woke up and realized I must need to stretch or something if I'm dreaming about it. My poor little limbs.
I could blog about how stressed out I was that twice this week when the wind blew over the garbage can and the next day our neighbor's garbage can right in FRONT of my driveway and I had to get out and move the can that I FREAKED out because it was one more thing I had to do... but I won't go there because you all may think I've lost my mind. Two days in a row there was a garbage can blocking my driveway! Would that push any other person over the edge? I think I need a vacay...
This morning I went to put my contacts in and since I ran out of solution yesterday I grabbed a new bottle out of the closet my mom had given me. I put some solution on the contact and put it in my eye and BURNED the heck out of it. I have never gotten a contact out so quickly. I tossed it out to rush my eye under the water while trying to keep my composure since Bella was freaking out that I was hurt (and I was). I swear I heard the sizzle come out of my eyeball!! As I rushed back over to see WHAT I just ushered into my eye I realized I put a soak and cleanse solution on instead of a multi-use. Who would have ever known it would chemically burn your eye. It's been red all day. Noticeably so.
This week has been so stressful and my body has been hurting everyday. Like I'm 60 or something. It's been hurting so much that I dreamt a couple nights ago that I was in an exercise class that consisted of all stretching and I remember in my dream that it felt so good. I woke up and realized I must need to stretch or something if I'm dreaming about it. My poor little limbs.
I could blog about how stressed out I was that twice this week when the wind blew over the garbage can and the next day our neighbor's garbage can right in FRONT of my driveway and I had to get out and move the can that I FREAKED out because it was one more thing I had to do... but I won't go there because you all may think I've lost my mind. Two days in a row there was a garbage can blocking my driveway! Would that push any other person over the edge? I think I need a vacay...
Irony
I love how you can wake up one morning and give service for a very large amount of your time and in the very same day you get pulled over and receive a ticket for expired registration and a burned out headlight. Especially when the registration payment was sent off two weeks ago and you haven't received it and you've been driving around town with the replacement headlight for weeks unable to change it out because you don't know how.
Isn't that fantastic!! Yay Kemah Policewoman.
At least it wasn't our car that was on fire down at Kemah today. It can always be worse. I do mean that.
Isn't that fantastic!! Yay Kemah Policewoman.
At least it wasn't our car that was on fire down at Kemah today. It can always be worse. I do mean that.
Friday, February 24, 2012
Losing My Validity
I have told my girls so many times this week that I'm close to having a nervous breakdown that I don't think they believe me at all anymore. I think I've lost my validity. Crap.
This week has been WAY too much for my liking. I am losing my mind. Every single day I've woke up with something major that is super demanding. I just want to talk about the week so far and vent.
Monday night we did our Science project that took forever. Tuesday all day I worked on the R.S. boards for the church activity. I was so thankful it all worked out. We cut 75 boards and did 75 vinyl decals for them. I ran out of 4 colors of vinyl and re-ordered two which arrived at 2pm that day. I pieced together the other two colors. Not smart. It's been too busy to be well prepared for things like that. I was exhausted thoroughly on Wednesday. My body shut down but I had to make it keep going to finish Cali's Science Fair board. (thank you Dr. Pepper and chocolate). I just want to state I think Science Fair boards are a huge waste of time. I think it's something our society has adapted but it's kind of pointless in my opinion. I'm all for the projects and learning involved. Just hate the whole board display. Especially when there was no real FAIR and they were just put up in Cali's classroom for Open House. (point of project- never buy Huggies!)
Wednesday night there was a lot of running kids around for church meetings. Then Survivor (that's always fun though). Thursday I had an hour and fifteen minutes to find Bella some khaki pants for her choir concert that night. We had a khaki skirt but her teachers told her she needed pants to match everyone else. ugh. I went to Target, Wal Mart and Ross in this hour I had free and by free I mean not really... and none of those stores had what we needed. NONE. I wasted an entire hour on nothing. I went visiting teaching then met with a customer for an order. All afternoon I was behind on everything. I picked up all the kids on the kids run and then took Bella to two more stores still not finding what we needed for the khaki pants. Finally I paid WAY too much for some we found because we were about an hour and a half until show time at this point and we still had to eat dinner. Saving grace- we found a childrens resale store on our drive home and went in and found some pants that were really nice for $3.50. I now get to add "return expensive over priced khaki pants back and get my refund" to my new "to do" list. We did choir, Open House and ice cream last night. Today is Friday. What is on the agenda today? Campout for Brae and Ken tonight. Gather flashlights that we don't have and sleeping bags that we don't have to my list to get ready. I had to make foil meals for each of them. I'd never done that before. I am excited to have learned something new today. I think they turned out ok. I feel bad to experiment on them while they are away from home but it's the best I can do. After the girls get dropped off in a bit for their campout I have to take Bentley downtown to meet his dad then Bella and I are gonna hang out and do something fun. I have no idea what because I am so fried on planning this week. Cali is going with a friend. Been to Wal Mart three days in a row now. Got a call today while at Wal Mart from Kensi. She left a homework assignment at home that is already late and needed me to bring it to her in an hour from the call. I was beyond done with frustration. Have I even mentioned the financial pressures of this week by chance?
Tomorrow is a service project in the morning, Brae's birthday, and she and I are celebrating with a friend tomorrow afternoon/night.
Sunday is church, a birthday dinner for a cute little friend and a fireside.
I am drowning. I need a life jacket but I don't have one and if you make me go back to Wal Mart I am going to scream.
On a side-note. Bentley has been throwing massive tantrums this week in public and his 3 hour naps have dwindled to 1.5 hr naps the past two days. And I keep finding him in his bed nude. Oh happy times. Happy times. :D
This week has been WAY too much for my liking. I am losing my mind. Every single day I've woke up with something major that is super demanding. I just want to talk about the week so far and vent.
Monday night we did our Science project that took forever. Tuesday all day I worked on the R.S. boards for the church activity. I was so thankful it all worked out. We cut 75 boards and did 75 vinyl decals for them. I ran out of 4 colors of vinyl and re-ordered two which arrived at 2pm that day. I pieced together the other two colors. Not smart. It's been too busy to be well prepared for things like that. I was exhausted thoroughly on Wednesday. My body shut down but I had to make it keep going to finish Cali's Science Fair board. (thank you Dr. Pepper and chocolate). I just want to state I think Science Fair boards are a huge waste of time. I think it's something our society has adapted but it's kind of pointless in my opinion. I'm all for the projects and learning involved. Just hate the whole board display. Especially when there was no real FAIR and they were just put up in Cali's classroom for Open House. (point of project- never buy Huggies!)
Wednesday night there was a lot of running kids around for church meetings. Then Survivor (that's always fun though). Thursday I had an hour and fifteen minutes to find Bella some khaki pants for her choir concert that night. We had a khaki skirt but her teachers told her she needed pants to match everyone else. ugh. I went to Target, Wal Mart and Ross in this hour I had free and by free I mean not really... and none of those stores had what we needed. NONE. I wasted an entire hour on nothing. I went visiting teaching then met with a customer for an order. All afternoon I was behind on everything. I picked up all the kids on the kids run and then took Bella to two more stores still not finding what we needed for the khaki pants. Finally I paid WAY too much for some we found because we were about an hour and a half until show time at this point and we still had to eat dinner. Saving grace- we found a childrens resale store on our drive home and went in and found some pants that were really nice for $3.50. I now get to add "return expensive over priced khaki pants back and get my refund" to my new "to do" list. We did choir, Open House and ice cream last night. Today is Friday. What is on the agenda today? Campout for Brae and Ken tonight. Gather flashlights that we don't have and sleeping bags that we don't have to my list to get ready. I had to make foil meals for each of them. I'd never done that before. I am excited to have learned something new today. I think they turned out ok. I feel bad to experiment on them while they are away from home but it's the best I can do. After the girls get dropped off in a bit for their campout I have to take Bentley downtown to meet his dad then Bella and I are gonna hang out and do something fun. I have no idea what because I am so fried on planning this week. Cali is going with a friend. Been to Wal Mart three days in a row now. Got a call today while at Wal Mart from Kensi. She left a homework assignment at home that is already late and needed me to bring it to her in an hour from the call. I was beyond done with frustration. Have I even mentioned the financial pressures of this week by chance?
Tomorrow is a service project in the morning, Brae's birthday, and she and I are celebrating with a friend tomorrow afternoon/night.
Sunday is church, a birthday dinner for a cute little friend and a fireside.
I am drowning. I need a life jacket but I don't have one and if you make me go back to Wal Mart I am going to scream.
On a side-note. Bentley has been throwing massive tantrums this week in public and his 3 hour naps have dwindled to 1.5 hr naps the past two days. And I keep finding him in his bed nude. Oh happy times. Happy times. :D
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Sunday, February 19, 2012
I Know I Need Help...
Just what I KNOW I will have this week. Oh, good grief!!!
*Cali has a Science Fair Project we haven't even started yet (due Thursday)
*I have 30 pieces of vinyl lettering I need to have printed by Tuesday night for a Relief Society activity. I am currently waiting (hoping and PRAYING) for the vinyl and supplies to arrive via UPS by Tuesday (if all goes well). So, I will have a few hours Tuesday to finish printing bc I ran out of vinyl.
*Cali and Bella have Activity Days after school Wed as well as Brae and Ken having mutual Wed night. Brae needs supplies to sew skirts and bonnets that night. I think my good friend has me covered in that dept but I need to double check nothing more is needed
*Thursday night Bella has a choir concert. She needs certain pants that I don't think she has! ugh
*Friday night Brae & Ken are going on a campout for camp certification. They each need supplies that we don't have. I need to make sure they are prepared for that.
*Saturday is Braelyn's birthday and party.
*Sunday we have a little birthday party to go to in the evening.
All this on top of choir practices & band practices after school and staying on top of my orders! I feel so worn down. I hope I wake up and feel enabled. The Lord is always so good to me to help me. This week I NEED HELP!
*Cali has a Science Fair Project we haven't even started yet (due Thursday)
*I have 30 pieces of vinyl lettering I need to have printed by Tuesday night for a Relief Society activity. I am currently waiting (hoping and PRAYING) for the vinyl and supplies to arrive via UPS by Tuesday (if all goes well). So, I will have a few hours Tuesday to finish printing bc I ran out of vinyl.
*Cali and Bella have Activity Days after school Wed as well as Brae and Ken having mutual Wed night. Brae needs supplies to sew skirts and bonnets that night. I think my good friend has me covered in that dept but I need to double check nothing more is needed
*Thursday night Bella has a choir concert. She needs certain pants that I don't think she has! ugh
*Friday night Brae & Ken are going on a campout for camp certification. They each need supplies that we don't have. I need to make sure they are prepared for that.
*Saturday is Braelyn's birthday and party.
*Sunday we have a little birthday party to go to in the evening.
All this on top of choir practices & band practices after school and staying on top of my orders! I feel so worn down. I hope I wake up and feel enabled. The Lord is always so good to me to help me. This week I NEED HELP!
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